Death, it's an inevitable thing.
We all know that it will happen to each and everyone of us, we
know that someone we love is inevitably going to have to go
away one day. It's just really hard to finally grasp the fact that
it's happening to you.

My Mama's dieing. She's dieing.
And I... I don't know what to do.

My family and I went to the hospital last night to go and visit her,
to spend as much time as we can with her. And it's just, it's soo
hard to see her like that. When I walked in, she was on a respirator.
It looked horrible on her. She looked so weak and frail, and we could
all tell that she did not want to be on that machine, but what could we do?
It's that machine that is helping her breath, helping her to take the
breaths that she needs to help her live.

I don't even know how she got sick all of a sudden. It all happened
soo fast. She was perfectly fine less than a year ago. We all
went to Mexico together for a family reunion trip. I just can't believe
that all the happiness can be taken away just like that.

Sometimes I don't know how to feel. I don't know if I should try and
be strong, and not show my emotions, or if I should just let it all out.
I just don't know how to deal with this situation. My Mama is like my
Mom. She took care of me when I was little, I even lived with her for
a while, my brother and I used to go over to her house almost every
weekend. She is always so loving and caring, I can't imagine our family
loosing her.

We don't want to looser her. We love her soo much.
I pray every night that she'll somehow get better, but I just don't
know if that's going to happen. I hope that she will but, what if
she doesn't? If she doesn't get better anytime soon, she might
not make it. But I really want to her to be okay, to feel better.

I just feel so helpless because there isn't anything any of us can really do.
What do you do when you feel like this?
Ahhh, it's just so frustrating.